I'm 70 and I still cook for four people even though I eat alone now and the reason isn't sadness - it's that cooking for one feels like admitting something I'm not ready to say out loud

Every night I set the table for ghosts, measuring out portions for people who will never come to dinner again, because the alternative - cooking for one - would mean accepting a truth my hands refuse to learn. Source: https://vegoutmag.com/lifestyle/s-a-im-70-and-i-still-cook-for-four-people-even-though-i-eat-alone-now-and-the-reason-isnt-sadness-its-that-cooking-for-one-feels-like-admitting-something-im-not-ready-to-say-out-loud/